~*~

Why is there a pain so deep inside,
which never want to go away.
How hard I do try to  make it all  stop,
it seems that it is there to stay.
I always have dreams of being bad,
and don't even know the why.
The only thing that go through in my mind,
is that  I want to  die.

~*~

But then there are weeks when all is fine,
and nothing can scare me off.
Forgotten the days that I want to die,
all gone are the days that were rough.
The sun had come out for just a short while,
the rainbow was shining so bright.
There was nothing so bad  that I couldn't do,
without giving it a big fight.

~*~

What does it mean these up and downs,
from which I can't seem to flee.
There is so much restlessness  deep inside,
it feels like a vulcano but it is just me.
I wish there was someone ,
who could tell me whats wrong.
For I wish this so desperate,
that those feelings were gone.

~*****~

Elise-Feb-1999